Darkness

I seek out the dark
Even as I fear it the most
A prisoner of my father’s fears
I have spent these years
In a self made cage
Impenetrable and sweet
In its predictability
In dark closets I hide
The space between coats and cloaks
My heartbeat, my breath
I hide to hide
The shameless tears
Trapped in a self
No longer familiar
The saline falls
And stains the wood
With my pain.